outside the ordinary human law. Their existence
is based on the loss of a geographical place, to
which were attached attributes of identity,
relationship and memory, and likewise on the
absence of any new social place” (Agier, 2008,
p. 29). In new countries foreigners establish their
places of belonging where they meet. Usually,
they gather in abandoned loci, cheap street cafes,
and public spaces.
Niloo’s experiences of being a refugee come to
life in her memory after she encounters the
Iranian immigrants in Amsterdam. One day she
found the Persian squat and arts space in a former
factory in Amsterdam where the Iranian people
meet. First, Niloo is intrigued and excited to see
those “who have familiar names and might be
distant cousins” (Nayeri, 2017, p. 75). Niloo
studies them as “she has studied people and
objects her entire life” (Nayeri, 2017, 75).
Initially, she comes to the gatherings out of pure
interest and her inner crisis, but as the narrative
evolves, these meetings become the beginning of
her identity reconsideration as well as the
revision of her relationship with her father. The
meetings of immigrants are unlike any other
meeting as they are strongly connected with the
lost country. Immigrants enjoy shared
recollections about places and practices they left
behind.
Listening to the refugees’ confessions, Niloo
recalls the moments of her suffering. On the first
night in America, she along with her mother and
brother, slept at Jesus House, a homeless shelter
in Oklahoma City. This night and two years of
being a refugee divides her life into two parts:
“the years of idling among mulberry trees in her
village, sitting barefoot with Baba on the cool
stone floor of his childhood home, of sated calm,
followed by the years of academic rise and
financial gain, American prosperity” (Nayeri,
2017, p. 37). That one night staying in the shelter
was as traumatic as two years of miserable
refugee life. The memory of that night is so
painful for Niloo that “it returns every time she
wastes an hour, a dollar, an opportunity” (Nayeri,
2017, p. 37). Her successful career, her marriage,
her desire to distance herself from the migrant
communities can be explained through that
traumatic night, through her fear to return to the
shelter. In this context, it can be argued that the
Perimeter is a kind of spatial opposition to that
Jesus House in Oklahoma City. It guarantees her
no return to that miserable locus.
Although Niloo was not apolitical, she had never
considered the situation her people face abroad.
After getting to know about the lives of Iranians
in Amsterdam, she sympathizes with them and
tries to help them with petitions. In return they
give her emotional support as she is trying to
mend the distorted dialogue between her Iranian
identity and her American self. This long process
of negotiation between different identities is
reinforced by encountering people with broken
fates. The identity of a refugee is constructed on
the primal trauma of oppression and exclusion.
Niloo builds an imaginary bond with others who
share in the suffering.
One of them is Mam’mad, a scholar and a
university professor, who was arrested and
harassed in Iran. His works “were torn apart by
people without even a first degree” (Nayeri,
2017, p. 151). Living in Amsterdam, he still fears
political persecution. Mam’mad confesses: “I
came with Scholars at Risk. They invite you to
give lectures, and if it's too dangerous to go
home, they help you with asylum petitions”
(Nayeri, 2017, p. 146). The other young Iranian
Karim left his wife in Iran and lives illegally in
Amsterdam. After meetings with the Iranians and
listening to their confessions, Niloo realizes that
they are left to themselves, and nobody cares
about their lives. “She has watched the news
from Iran every day since June. She wonders if
people like Gui and his colleagues are aware of
what the Iranian exiles suffer here in the
Netherlands, without homes, always under threat
of deportation, some living in squats, others on
the streets” (Nayeri, 2017, p. 76). The continual
focus on injury binds those who suffered from
humiliation and discrimination. Focusing on the
politics of suffering and on a fetishization of
victimization gives rise to a refugee’s identity.
On the other side, state bureaucracy and
authorities do not pay enough attention to
refugees’ wretched living conditions and
humiliation. Very often the decisions are unjust:
“The embassies and the agencies are run by
poorly educated Western bureaucrats. If your
translator has an American or Dutch accent, like
yours or Siavash’s, your story gets believed. If
not, then not” (Nayeri, 2017, p. 147). The Iranian
refugees disclose before Niloo the harsh reality
of bureaucratic mechanisms that do not deal with
the real situations but with the narratives that
often are well-rendered lies written for those who
are well-connected. Meanwhile, the real victims
are “too traumatized to relive anything, and don’t
know any good translators” (Nayeri, 2017,
p. 147). All these meetings provoke Niloo to
recall her situation in Rome, where her mother
with two children petitioned for refuge because
of religious beliefs. The reason why the officer
believed her was because he interviewed Niloo